Goodbye is one of the hardest words in the English language.
Sometimes we say goodbye to people, sometimes to situations – both can be just as hard.
I have made 2 big decisions to say goodbye in the last 2 weeks.
I have spent the last 2 years building a support group for women on Facebook.
It’s seems funny now that it took me one month to pluck up the courage to open the group as I didn’t have a clue how how to run a group and I didn’t know if anyone would want to join.
It has been an amazing support for me and for many other women, but a few months ago it just didn’t feel right.
I posted more content, ran free challenges, made live videos. It still didn’t feel right.
As the group grew at a very fast pace (at times I was adding 50 people a week) the atmosphere changed.
It was rarely used as a support group, members seemed to be more interested in posting their own content and rarely supported each other.
When I posted everyone engaged in the post, but then it would go quiet again.
I’ve had so many people question my decision to close the group as they feel growing a group of 2000 women makes it a successful group.
It was never about the numbers.
I don’t validate my success on the amount of people that join the group. In reality there are about 30 ‘active’ members and approximately 200 that I have deleted and blocked for blatantly spamming the group.
I could list 20 other ‘reasons’ but they still will not make sense to many people,
The reason for this is that my decision to say goodbye is not a logical decision.
I made the decision from my heart, and as you will know these decisions can’t be fought and there will never be a logical explanation.
The fact it can’t be fought doesn’t make it easy. I cried as I wrote the post to explain the group will be closing and I’m sure I will feel emotional on Friday as I press the button to close the group once and for all.
If it doesn’t feel right, it’s time to say goodbye.
Last year I began doing some freelance work for a mortgage adviser. This was another decision that was questioned by many.
As a self employed mum who lives on her own with 2 children I have made many hard decisions over the years to find a way to carry on when the going got tough.
To say last year was tough is an understatement, it was the hardest year of my life.
Sometimes you have to do the things you don’t want to do to enable you to carry on doing the things you do want to do.
In my case I want to inspire a new generation of empowerment, whilst being a positive role model for my boys.
I made the decision to stop this freelance work 2 weeks ago. Again, it has shocked people, it was not an easy decision and there were some tears.
I have put my heart and soul into my business over the last 4 and a half years but it’s time for me to say goodbye to parts that no longer form part of my journey.
It’s time for me to say hello to the part of me that has been quietly bubbling under the surface, begging to be set free.
It’s time to say hello to Cassie the author.
It is time for me to take myself seriously and dedicate this time to what I believe my true purpose is, inspiring change through my writing.
I have dipped my toe in the water by publishing the true story of my life. Now is the time for me to take a chance and know that I am so much more than my story.
I am so excited, but also nervous, as I await the initial feedback from my editor for the first 3 chapters of my new book;
‘If my life is so good, why is my head in such a mess?’
This is a real guide for real women who have been everything to everyone and have started to lose a part of themselves.
I believe that there is a silent epidemic of self sabotage spreading in many women’s heads around the world.
I will share my personal experience combined with simple, yet very powerful tools which will quickly allow them to regain control of their head, and ultimately their life.
I have been there and got the T-shirt with self destruction. My life has been a beautiful mess for the last 14 years and if you had spoken to me and asked me how I was I would have smiled and told you ,’I’m ok.’
It’s ok, not to be ok.
It’s about time we all knew that we don’t have to live behind the rose-tinted highlights of our perfectly filtered lives accompanied by the hashtags #sohappy #soblessed #sodeluded (spot the odd one out!)
Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything, maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.
My mission is to inspire a new generation of empowerment.
Watch this space…